I love describing things to people in real life because I think I'm good at it.
I get into a flow and I start making little connections and metaphors that make perfect sense to me (but not always to other people, weird huh) and it's just fun. I like following rabbit trails or exploring ideas and fleshing them out, even if to the detriment of my original point.
I don't always speak in proper syntax, but I'm kinda glad for it. I think the rules of English can become clunky and restrictive and honestly they feel like a bottleneck sometimes. I like the "spur of the moment" feel or pressure of feeling like I don't know what I'm going to say next but not even worrying about it. There's something refreshing to me about letting my thoughts tumble out for minutes at a time then winding them back up and presenting a coherent idea or conclusion to my comrades.
Maybe it gets me in trouble (it definitely gets me in trouble) when I rant or ramble or forget where I was going with a story but doesn't everything have a cost? Aren't there consequences for every action and don't we have to deal with them every time we make a choice? Of course there are! I would willingly sacrifice a little bit of literary integrity or "coherence" if I stumbled upon a novel idea or nugget of wisdom hidden among the brambles in my mind.
Maybe I'm just wishing that I was more integrated in forums of verbal interaction(uh, definitely). I guess typing is the next best thing when it comes to coming across brain nuggets. You'll be hearing more from me here in the future, as I attempt to flesh out my endless wanderings and release my pent up need to TALK! there, I said it. I have a lot of things and guess what everyone's advice is? Start a blog. Well, good thing I already have one, so step one is out of the way.
Let me know if this is worth while in the comments or just keep on scrolling, that's fine too. Imagine, while you're reading this, that we are just sitting at a coffee shop (your fav one, perhaps?) and I'm just telling you something that's been on my mind. I'm not trying to yell or push an agenda, I'm just trying to process these over reactive neurons of mine.
Talk to you soon,
John
