There are so many unanswered questions
so many legitimate fears.
There are so many insecurities and I wish there was some cure all,
some panacea that I could share with the people I love, something to answer them, to calm them, to reassure them.
"I want to save you";
but that sort of thing will never stem from me or some one like me.
We are in the same situation, you and I.
All of us, humans, on a dying planet, unable to see past the horizon or the tip of our collective nose.
There is no earthly thing to bring us hope, no solution for our issues
No salvation for our tormented minds.
Nothing that originates on this planet will conclusively and ultimately help us.
We are lost
Beyond comprehension, in the refuse of our own actions and thoughts, but still caged in our untamed nature.
We are, from our own perspective, stuck in an infinite loop of failure, loss, self-doubt, and failure again.
Nothing that we can fathom will save us.
The greatest minds, both past and contemporary, have spent immeasurable energy searching for our cure, only to meet the same fate, the same common denominator, as their lesser fellows.
Our shared end, even if we take every opportunity given us and maximize every moment or brain cell, is to experience the decay of age and his voracious brother
death
After giving this life every vestige of effort, every breath and every heartbeat, the ultimate failure of the self-sufficient human is death.
None escape this fate.
There is no will that is not bent in the grasp of death.
We must only open our eyes to see this truth and all must accept it.
But there is another truth that I have witnessed
Another absolute that, by its very nature, cannot be explained away or escaped.
It can be denied, however, and unlike death, it is not a truth ultimately believed by every human.
After experiencing the truly impossible and hopeless nature of myself and my fellow human, I have seen help.
In the midst of my monotony and pain, in the centre of this whirlwind life,
I have felt something else.
As I said, this feeling can be ignored or pushed aside;
But it is always there.
This feeling does not come from a test tube or a text book.
In fact it is, by definition, something I can't explain. But when I open my own eyes and look into someone else's, I see it.
In a knee bent low in service,
I see it.
In a mother's unyielding devotion to her children,
I see it.
In the selfless giving of wealth to those who have none,
I see it.
In the tireless care of a disabled grandparent or sibling,
I see it.
This absolute, this truth that I can't explain away
It's immeasurable
By its very nature, it is unfathomable.
It looks like a person looking out, away from themselves,
Breaking the magnetic pull of a mirror
And finding another soul to care for.
This is not natural.
This answer fills a hole that I had thought un-fillable.
If I cannot fathom an answer for my questions, in spite of all my searching and the searchings of all before me,
There must be none here.
But because I have felt this thing,
This truth that I can't comprehend,
I conclude that it must come from outside this world.
And it is Good.
