Thoughts

So many things go through my head recently
I can barely keep track
I looked it up and apparently humans, on average, think 70,000 thoughts a day
I may be breaking the stats on this one
A lot of things that I should have thought about during the last few months and years of my life
Are finally coming to my brain
All at once
Like, who am I?
Literally, what makes John Justus Angelo Hoehn happy?
Laugh?
Cry?
Create?
Coldplay is one of my favorite bands, because I like how their music sounds and what most of the words say
But, is it still?
Believe me, yes, Coldplay is still great in my book, love them
Busting rhythms, Idk, am I good at it? I've never thought I was, cause I've never tried
So, now it's stuck in my head that I don't like rap music
Sometimes, rarely, I like Christian rap
Sort of
However, it's always been about the content for me, with rap
How are they getting their message across?
Hateful?
Proud?
Playful?
Profane?
That's what I've always hated about rap
The words
They're either too worldly/dirty or too preachy/cheesy
Do I hate rap though?
Don't think so, now that you mention it
Dead on what I'm talking about
Leaving my past conceptions behind
Leading a more fulfilling life
Loving in a more... MORE way
Realizing what I like and don't like
Reviewing what it is that ticks me off and what gets my face to never stop smiling
Revenue?
No way on earth
Never, at least I hope and pray, will I rely on money to fulfill me
Not on circumstances either
Joy comes from within
Jesus in the reason for every season, especially the season of life that you're in
Just think about that now
Many great thinkers
Mulling over the issue of fulfillment and happiness
Mastering all other aspects of life
Kept from this one thing
Knights of a cause they do not understand
Keep on keeping on, but never find it
Unless
Up against their own worthlessness
Urged by the Spirit of God
Epiphany happens
Everything changes
Easter means more than chocolate and fake grass

Do you see what I've done?
I have created order out of the madness in my brain
At least a small part of it
At least some semblance of order
What you have just witnessed is my thought vomit on a page, a webpage
What I really wanted to say is that I have recently met someone that, if you're reading this
Don't get the wrong impression
Just keep smiling :)
Anyway, this person has stimulated a great many thoughts in me
How do I relate to other people?
What do I value in a person?
In a girl?
In a dude?
How do I effectively express my thoughts in conversation?
How do I look past the awkward moments and move on with the friendship?
Am I a radical
Or am I common place?
Am I being real with myself?
With other people?

I could go on
But this blog is long enough
Mull over it
Tell me your thoughts
Tell me something I don't know

Keep rocking, Keep rolling

Always Hope yall, John Hoehn