Spectacle

Being a follower of Christ is such a counter cultural "thing"
I don't know who you are, Dear Reader, so I cannot assume that you believe in God or in what Christianity should be.
I don't think I believe in Christianity as it stands right now
At least, I don't believe in the mechanization, the industrialization of "church"
That being said.
I definitely believe in God
I cannot imagine even a cell, a single living cell, just coming about
Out of nothing
Nothing cannot create anything
What would "it" use as materials?
What would "it" be?
No, I believe there is a Creator
And that if He took the "time" to create things as beautiful as an orchid in bloom or a new baby
A waterfall or a clown fish
Just even a junebug
I know they aren't really that cute,
But what makes them want light?
Don't take that as a metaphor as junebugs seeking God's face
Just, what makes them "want" anything?
I would say, it's a God
And if He took the time to create all this AND to work among it
I am just drawn to listening to what He has to say
And agreeing with it
That's silly ;)
It doesn't matter if I agree with DAD, if He knows enough to give life, which is unexplainable to us, I find it necessary to do what He says
He just has the "blueprints" if you will
He knows what a life is supposed to look like because He "sat down" and hashed it out while He was creating life itself
If I make a cake, I know everything that went into it
If the cake were sentient, all it would know is that it exists and probably that it tastes good
Maybe even that it's purpose is to bring happiness to it's eaters
But will it ever know what makes it "it"?
Will it, when seeing the heat of an oven, shy away from a very important component of it's creation?
I know, we are rather different from cakes
But when we see some of the things that make us "us," are we afraid of them?
I'm not a hundred percent what I am trying to get across, I stayed up pretty late last night and this whole weekend has been very full with busyness
But know this
IF you believe that God has a handle on making things right, maybe you could take a few pointers from Him
Maybe, if you believe that He is as powerful as He seems, you ought to live like He says
Not because He may smite you if you don't
But because His way is best
You tell me a version of living, a way of life that makes more sense, a lifestyle that brings as much
Purpose, Fulfillment, Joy, Peace, Love....
That is better than the one prescribed by Jesus in the gospels, and I'll give you whatever you want
My words may sound like empty threats
But they aren't
IDK
I feel like I've heard people say stuff like this before and I skimmed it and said
"yeah, thats true.... I wonder what videos are trending on YouTube right now..."
It isn't easy to look at your life and realize that maybe it's not yours
Whatever you believe in
Whatever you think about this post
Whatever you try to adhere to in life, whatever doctrine
You better make sure you believe is wholeheartedly
And that, if it is truly as "good" or a life changing you believe it to be, you share it with everyone who doesn't know about it.
Be a spectacle
I would say
Open your eyes to your surroundings
Your physical and mental ones
And you will see what is truly there
Which I believe to be God

Always Hope, Love Regardless, and Peace Out

P.S. The reason I was so adamant about you proclaiming your belief system to everyone is that I believe you to be a sentient human, capable of seeing what is "there." And I believe that God is there.
Everywhere

Holy One

When I walk in the darkness
you bring forth the light
And I see that there's hope at the end
As I cry through the hardships
you set all things right
And My heart, to your will, you do bend
You keep me and guide me
when none else are beside me
You show me the way toward the gate
My mind sees the broken
the sick and unspoken
With these hands, I will change that fate
When they come for me, stop them
Create me a hedge
Surround me with your loving power
If I'm sinking down, save me
Give rest to my head
Help me survive through each hour
Your peace all consumes me
You mind reaches through me
I'm lost in your infinite love
I feel as though nothing could ever get to me
Your hands and your heart are enough
When I'm tired and sore
And I shut all your doors
You show me the key to new locks
Never getting frustrated
when your words I have hated
You send me a person to talk
Saved me, displayed me
for lovers to see
For help to be always at hand
Your strength will uphold me
And your mighty arm shield me
And keep me till comes the worlds end
And beyond

Peace

I said I would write a blog about peace, didn't I?
And now I'm coming through
Look at that, making good on my promises and everything.
Lovely :)
I wanted to bring up the discussion of  Peace because it seems very fundamental to sanity, joy, hope, open mindedness, relationships, and so many more aspects of life.
Love, it deals with love too.
I think we should define Peace before we discuss it
cause yes, we are having a discussion here ;)
You are a big part of this blog, without you it would just be an online diary
So, Peace
The definition on Dictionary.com mostly deals with countries not at war or a command for someone to be quiet
Like Jesus speaking to the wind and waves ;)
Or a greeting
But that's not what I'm trying to get across here
Not at all
I want to talk about peace in the heart, peace of mind
The Bible talks of peace like it is a state of mind, a gift from God for His children
It also seems to make it out to be an action
And I definitely agree
Look at that, I agree with the Bible :)
Like always ;)
I want to give a bit of a "real life experience" here though, just to make it more real
Cause nobody likes a fictional life story where one only speculates about change
So, I'll tell ya
It just seems as though recently, whenever I start to get mad or frustrated or fed up or apathetic, I have started to be able to counteract those feelings before they come to fruition
To full bloom ;)
And my only explanation is that I am at peace with life and I can see things from a different place than I used to
You may say "That's not peace, that's homeostasis"
Well, yeah
Peace is kind of a balancing factor, it helps keep everything in perspective
When some maddening event presents itself, my inner peace realizes that, 9 times out of 10, it's just something stupid or something I cannot change
So I stop worrying about it
Or I start to lose hope in myself, in the fact that I CAN get out of bed in the morning and go to 5 classes
And then my peace reminds me that that is what I am here for and my bed is not my final destination
Many would say "According to Freud, that is called your ego, the part of your consciousness that regulates your impulses and your convictions."
True
Some would say that
But hey, what if Freud was just giving a name to Peace?
Maybe Freud was wrong ;)
Who knows
All you now know from this blog is my view of what Peace is, at least how it has so far manifested itself in my life
And I think the closer we get to God, the more peace will settle onto us and we will be able to shut out the world
The distractions, both good and bad
That's all
I've gotta study for an Environmental Science test which I have tomorrow
So I'm gonna peace out
;)
Always Hope, Love Regardless, and Peace Out

P.S. if you read this blog, you should comment with a tattoo idea for me and where I should get it. I know I have SOME readers cause last time I checked, I had 750+ pageviews on here. Thanks!

Jambalaya

My soul is just a shell, of what it used to be
I'm sure that you can tell, there used to be more of me
I'm sinking in a swell, the ocean's cold is numbing
I lost it, may as well, have jumped right in it completely

I'd dig through this dark hill, if light were all around me
Ever since I blew it out, there's nothing there to guide me
I'd kill off these dark spells, if they were not so frightning
I'll give to you my will, to rest my cold dead body

You keep all to yourself, alone you suffer needlessly
You build up walls of brick and stone, with words devoid of mercy
To find a cure is to be sure of wanting a solution
The answer's out there, waiting, sleeping, ready for a question

Keep your mind in a pure state, keep your fingers crossed
Hold on, with your fingertips, to the things you love the most

A time for killing, time for joy, a time for love, for pain
A time to gather, time to weep, and time for me to say
I've been there, what you're slogging through, I've lived a lie, insane
But not by mine, nor yours, not ours, is Love given a name

Sap drips freely, this I know, my words are lemon and blood
Without this hope I cling to, though, my life would be no good

Life is fleeting, catch it's tail, its passing by us all
The light of our salvation, comes at the curtain call
Believe or not in the Father's good, it matters not to us
Just be there when the lightning strikes and satan's banners fall

My heart is hard to tell, is it broken, torn, or mending?
My brain broke, tripped and fell, but messages still sending
My ligaments are raw and smell, that's my cake's red icing
My soul, however, alive and well, will keep this human ticking.

Don't let the dark beginning getchya, it gets better :)
Hope is always alive.
Pass it on